Sentiment of friendship lillah.


Thank you, I mean Jazakillahu Khayran.

Hmmm. Seriously I don’t know how to start and where to end. ^_^ BUT one thing is for sure I will make this entry as “simple” as I wanted to express what needs to be express. IN SHAA ALLAH.


Just like every best of friend’s do–

They say ,

”Thank you for the friendship you’ve shared and times of being there rain or shine-good or bad times.  May our friendship would last and with the entire pinky swear like BFF 4ever. I will surely miss those time of ROFL and times we’ve shared all the things under the sun. I will surely cherish our get together and keep the time machine on my locker.”

Yezza those were the times of ignorance on how to keep a friendship.

(Base on my ignorance experience, Astahgfirullah)

*Nabi Salallahu Alayhi wassalam said:

“A man is on the creed of his friends. So each of you should ponder over who he befriends”

(Abu Dawud)

*Ibn Abbas Radiyallahu Anhu says that Nabi salallahu alayhi  wassalam was asked”

“Which of your friends are better?” to which he replied,

“When you see him you remember ALLAH Ta’ala, by his speech your knowledge increases, and his actions reminds you of the hereafter.” (Qurtubi)

That explains on how to keep and how to find  a friendship lillah. ❤

Erstwhile, the very first time I moved to this place, I started to admit that NOTHING LAST FOREVER just like things must come to an end. I was feeling the forlorn of being away from the place where I consider the things to be “FOREVER”, specifically the “BFF FOREVER”.  I was in the place of no one to hold on and no one to catch up for an “unwind”, they say.  Yet I know that I can only be down in the dumps not for so long. Taking the best move to have a progress is not that easy for someone who has the identity of “melancholic”, ME.

BUT ALHAMDULILLAH.  It is true that finding the real thing of self-fulfillment cannot put a price tag, although finding it is such a tall order for me, but it is a journey worth taking, for what is life without a mission?  So my first mission was to know the REAL “BFF FOREVER” (Being stranded in the limbo allows time for reflections, ALHAMDULILLAH)

So my mission was started with my best weapon, I mean the BEST WEAPON OF A BELIEVER, THE DU’AH.

“Ya ALLAH, grant me a friend that could be my best mirror, that could be the reason for me to know what is the true friendship merely for Your sake, a friend that could be the way for me to change my dunya perspective to Aakhira perspective, a  friend that could bring me close to you and can be my mate till we step the  finish line, and that is your Arsh. And most importantly a friend that will share the friendship of lillah aiming to be in your Shade in the day that there will be no shade but Your shade (Arsh)”

Yes, that’s my du’ah. I could still remember how my eyes swell with tears from praying. Subhannallah.

To do my part on my du’ah I have to scan and search for some article or a Hadith that talks about Friendship lillah. Happily (ALHAMDULILLAH) an article entitled “CHOOSING FRIENDS” was clip on one of my big brother articles from South  Africa.

 “ALLAH Ta’ala has awarded us this short, temporary worldly life as a priceless opportunity to attain His pleasure for eternity. Every second that we have in our hands is like an expensive pearl in need of our utmost protection so that it can be spent in the most profitable of actions. One of the most important choices in life, and undoubtedly one of the most delicate, is who to spend some of these limited and precious moments with, Our choice of company is such a crucial one that it has a sizeable effect on the worldly life, as well as the eternal life of the Aakhirat. Choosing a good friend will result in a pleasant and fruitful worldly life and eternal peace in the aakhirat, while the choice of bad company will result in a miserable worldly life and eternal regret in the Aakirat.”

When I first read the first paragraph I REALLY wanted to have a good company at the right moment. MashaaALLAH.

ALLAH Subhannlla wa Ta’ala says in the Qur’an:

“Friends would be enemies on that day except for those who have taqwa”. (Surah Zukhruf V.67). Hafiz Ibn Kathir has mentioned in the commentary of this verse a narration of Ali Radiyallahu Anhu in which he says that there were two friends who were believers and two friends who were disbelievers. From the two friends of believers, one of them died and was given the glad tidings of Jannat. He remembered his friend and made dua to ALLAH Subhannlla wa Ta’ala “O ALLAH Subhannlla wa Ta’ala, I had such and such a friend who used to encourage me to obey You and Your Messenger Salallahu Alayhi Wassalam, he used to enjoin upon me good and forbid me from evil, and he used to remind me that one day I will have to meet You. O ALLAH Subhannlla wa Ta’ala don’t lead him astray after me so that he may see those scenes (of Jannat) that You have shown me, and be pleased with him as You have been pleased with me”, In reply to this dua ALLAH Subhannlla wa Ta’ala will say, “If you were to know what rewards I have kept for your friend, you would laugh more and cry less.” After that the second friend will die, and both their souls will come together. Then ALLAH Subhannallah wa Ta’ala will command them to praise each other, so one will say to other, “What a good brother, what a good companion, what a good friend”. The narration continues to explain the case of two disbelievers as being the total opposite. (Ibn Abi Hatim).

Finishing the article with an infinite saying “MashaALLAH”.  ALLAH grants me to open my heart and soul to whom to be friend with. ALHAMDULILLAH. :’)

—That was the Journey of my mission—

ALHAMDULILLAH I meet my dear friend.  We’ve meet again. Yes, we’ve meet again.

We’ve meet long ago and we both grow up in an era of ignorance, an era of BFF FOREVER, an era where we tolerate the misunderstandings just be on hanged, an era where we don’t understand what are the best qualities of a friend, an era where we talk about only dunya, an era where we only give advice when we find each other sad . . . an era where WE WERE LOST. *deep sigh*

That era ends with fathomless “Istighfar”,

ALHAMDULILLAH we’ve meet again and we will grow up again. (in shaa ALLAH)

Where are now on era to develop these qualities to ourselves:

  • “When you see him you remember ALLAH Ta’ala,
  • by his speech your knowledge increases,
  • and his actions reminds you of the hereafter.”

We are on era where we give Naseeha when we find our Imaan weak (always) and in need of refill.

We are on era with the theme “Fastabiqul Khayrat”. ❤ ALHAMDULILLAH.

ALLAH knows how happy I am and how thankful I am to know that we still keep in touch despite of busy schedule that we both have. Alhamdulillah. By her friendship Lillah she is always all ears with my worldly and aakhira philippic or what she called “rants”. ALLAH knows BEST how bless I am to have her with her friendship lillah. I am indeed bless for ALLAH grants her the understanding to what naseeha I am in need. (The entry thingy).  I understand now what is behind the word “BESTIE”, we should always TIE the friendship lillah for the BEST in Aakhirah <3. ALHAMDULILLAH.

True happiness is in Jannah”

Through Du’ah we will always be connected. Keeping the word “FOREVER” only through Du’ah.

“I ask ALLAH to allow us to be under His shade on the day there is no shade for a friendship for His sake”

Ameen Ya Rabb. Ameen



Grow up with Deen.

“Is is true that our true abode is Aakhira?”
I came home late from office pass 7pm already. I was so dehydrated and in need of rest. Weariness is overflowing in my veins. As I handed the food I bought for Saff, he asked me about that.. “Pyur a aya walay tanu na sa   aakhira?”..-Fffreezzee-  mashaaALLAH I felt like I had drunk from the ocean of naseeha. I got freeze as I was lying in my bed after I answered my brother with a “YES”. Subhannallah.
After that, I questioned my own self?
“Qza,  what is your true abode!?” Why You keep on worrying about how did life change you.. Astaghfirullah. Are my weariness worth it!? What did I do today?Yesterday? and the other day? Did I remember ALLAH azza wajaal. *sigh*
How perfect ALLAH is.
Saff never fail to remind me through his questions and his productivity. MashaaALLAH.
Saffrullah iz the name ❤ A very productive young boy who used to sleep at Masjid during ‘Itikaf. I  seldom saw him scanning and reading his notes but i often see him scanning and reading Qur’an. He never sing out loud with such modern song,he recite Qur’an out loud following some Qari. His lullaby is Surah Naba not with the modern song. If you try to see what’s in his pocket, you will be amaze that Tasbeeh and a perfume is what he’s keeping(Sunnah). MashaaALLAH.  He always wear full sunnah more than he wears his complete uniform at school.. His favorite lecturer are Scholars (i.e. Yasir Qadhi, mufti menk) not his teachers.
I remember when he got home from Masjid after he listened to some bayaan. I asked him, what Have you heard and understand.. He just say.. “A very little knowledge”.. It was said that “every rain drop there is a Malaykat” mashaaALLAH
Since then when it rains I remember my brother and through him I remember ALLAH Azza wajaal in every rain drops. ALHAMDULILLAH.
May ALLAH always guide him through His deen. Indeed my brother is longing for a guidance. Ameen Ya Rabb. May ALLAH always extend his blessing to our mother. Ameen Ya Rabb.
After our discourse he played the nasheed, I remember your smile. Alahmdulillah for only ALLAH can grant him understanding of why did it happen and how he will face everything. In shaa ALLAH
-Currently saff is sleeping while listening to his fave sweet voice Qari. Ahamdulillah.
Anna uhibukka lillah my lil brother..

still, I’m trying.


I do miss everything and everyone so badly. ALLAH knows *teary eyed*

Indeed ALLAH is the Best Planner and the Best Controller.

As much as I wanted to yell on how much I miss my self, I always fail. I’d rather chose to sleep and help my self to fill my heart with the word, “PATIENCE”. Cheer up the worst is yet to come, be patient.

There are so  many things I am trying to avoid (i.e social Network), in order for me to handle everything  that I am facing here in this place where my only companion is my Patience. My life took a new turn. AND I NEVER THOUGHT LIFE WILL BRING ME TO THESE THINGS.

Life is like that—a metaphorical test paper, a test of courage and independence. You had to experience waiting for a seeming eternity all by yourself. Even simple chitchat would have been a relief at that time. *SIGH*

I almost let my dream be totally broken, like a glass hurled on the floor. It was painful to be hit by the shards. I bled. I cried. I almost gave up, until I regained my consciousness and had this clarity of desire: “I will fix that broken glass.” FOR THE BEST in shaa ALLAH.

And so it happened. I put the pieces back. I was wounded in doing so, but I did not give up. I pondered on the lessons it gave me and continued to chase my dream. But rebuilding a dream is not easy. Life is never easy. It requires hard work and patience. In life, therefore, be diligent, be patient. To keep on desiring Aakhirah. In shaa ALLAH.
Alhamdulillah babajan really knows what I was going through despite of his silence.

Be patient, always be patient. Think of Aakhirah.

You are walking on this fleeting dunya to spread salaam

and to give Da’wah.Just be patient. Keep that in your mind

Those words helps me to  realize that  I should always check my Imaan.
Life will be easy when you keep  on your mind that ALLAH is the One who controls your PATHS. …..ALHAMDULILLAH :’)

If being here is the way for me to exercise my patience then I will develop my Tawwakal and bring my self to everything I’m facing. IN SHAA ALLAH

For this, I wrote something for myself yesterday on my Journal.

You are a stranger

A stranger that in need of Sabr

A stranger that in need of reliance on ALLAH Ta’ala

A stranger that wants to be away from the the Dunya

A stranger who wants to be contented and satisfied with

the commandments of ALLAH Ta’ala.

A stranger who  wants to posses Yaqiin.

In order to be a stranger  I have to weaken my desire and inclination towards the Dunya. And be firm from seeking the Aakhirah. All knew that the cure of illness is to remove its cause. IN SHAA ALLAH ❤

“Live in this world as a traveler or a stranger”

I say, In shaa ALLAH.


The Blue note.

ImageI wanted to cry.  How could this stranger girl who knew so little about my life, actually know the  right thing to say from something I chose to kept.MashaALLAH.

That is the short description about that blue note. I was taking some key notes that my friend uttering while she was trying to unload what besets her. mashaALLAH.

“the best cure is our Imaan (faith)”…

“Not all good are good, good things sometimes should be away for us to be able to have Shokur”…

“Keep on your mind what you will get in Akhira”

That’s the key note that my friend was unaware that I was writing.

We were supposed to have our class at 8am but Alhamdulillah we were informed that all professors will  have a practice for the graduation (RMMC).
So, Alhamdulillah, ALLAH arrange our time. We had our schmooze for almost 3hours outside our room. I was lil bit startled how did my friend started her story in life. I was just like a bystander on how she blot out her stories..bystander in a way that in every struggles she was narrating she ended it with some Hikma that ALLAH grant her to understand.ALHAMDULILLAH.

(P.S. I am not good in narration. I should ended this now..hmm)

Everything was JUST ALHAMDULILLAH. We have both realize that we should avoid feigning  like we can face things without the Help of ALLAH. Astaghfirullah.

Always check your Imaan and rectify it.  I never thought about it like that.

NOTHING BUT ALHAMDULILLAH ❤ Don’t rely on “making up” because you can never really make up for the lost times. Each day will always be a new  day.




Rise and shine Ya bint  quezza 🙂

ALHAMDULILLAH  for I slept quarter to 2am and hitting the keyboard at 6.15am hmm hwaazzz that? here I am putting all the words while digging it up from my fickle mind.

NOTHING I AM JUST FEELING SO PRODUCTIVE in the morning. Like Rawdaty used to say, “NO BOREDOM FOR A TRUE BELIEVER” ❤ *miss*’

anyway, I will take a nap, I am not about to make an entry this morning but because of my LT sleeping beside me while I left it on downloading some installers, I am tempted too make this one… FUDGE.

BISMILLAH with Mawla ya Salley nasheed…maaElixir.

That’s all about the picsha<3

blue note <3


Tomorrow I will be writing something what is behind this crumpled paper note. in shaa ALLAH.

gotta hit the sack already, too late for tomorrow is NOT an ANOTHER day, it is one of my sensei scheds ❤ ALHADMULILLAH

Confident with myself.



I just finished most of all my todolists ^_^ ALHAMDULILLAH.

  • stay  curios.
  • remind my lil brother to be productive
  • segregate  my STI and RMMC papers.
  • chores.
  • msg my likely brother all the way from KL ❤
  • others are mine to keep 🙂

another bizzinizz to do ❤

  • write another todolists.
  • what to do with summer?
  • what to bring to mc.
  • what to avoid to mc “?”
  • make the most out of it with homies
  • download installers (the geek)
  • YOU SHOULD finish the SCIENCE LIBRARY with Saff ❤
  • make an entry about Saff ❤
  • others are mine to keep ❤

ALHAMDULILLAH all the way I’m with my focus..knowing that in this way I could avoid what makes me beset and making some way how to inform my  twin brother *siigh*  in shaa ALLAH. Things will be easier and clearer with the Hikma of ALLAH ❤

For now my happiness  is shout out loud with “ALHAMDULILLAH” for today ❤

and ALHAMDULILLAH for tomorrow I will be with someone I used and love to address,  “sensei” :’)



I left my fellas back home..realizing I was the one being left..
Everything comes to an end..and things will never be the same.

^_^ ALHADMULILLAH for I was able to realize how strong I was with ALLAH ❤


Following the voice of a very sweet voice of a a kid reciting Surah Naba..MashaaALLAH..

EASE *teary eye*